My addiction to indecision just might make me disappear, but then again, my addiction to indecision is what keeps me here

A lot has happened since my last blog entry. I have had a bit of an existential "What do I want to do with my life?!" break down. For many, many years now my dream job was to become a therapist. This was something I did not question, it was simply my goal and I really thought I wanted to do it. However, I am slowly beginning to doubt this. I find myself not really looking forward to my psychotherapy class and had a sense of panic and dread before I was assigned my client. This feeling has lessened slightly since I was assigned my client, but it still has left me thinking. I get really excited when I go to my psychopathology class and find myself constantly asking researchy type questions and wanting to know the answers to them. I have begun to really examine what I want to do with my life and I realized that in an ideal world, as I mentioned on facebook, I would finish up my Clinical Masters, get a Criminal Justice Masters from UNC, and then go to Widener(which I am told has a program where you can get your PhD and law degree at the same time). This would give me a chance to really broaden my horizons and work in both the psychology world and the world of law.
Unfortunately, I do not live in an ideal world. Money is very much an issue. A bachelors degree that I have yet to even begin to pay off, two Masters degrees, and a PhD/a law degree would be astronomically expensive and I find myself not having the several hundred thousand dollars, it would take.
So, realistically, I have no idea what I want to do. I definitely want to do something involving psychology because it is my passion but apart from that...I'm at a loss. I think I would enjoy being a victims advocate but that might also 'burn me out' emotionally fairly quickly, but then again, it may not. I also think I would be a really good Psychology Professor and I think I would enjoy doing it. But, I also know that university's are hurting financially and are not really wanting to actually hire professors full time right now so again, it comes back to money stopping me.
Woof.
In addition to this life crisis, Sae(Shannon's preferred nickname) is going to fly back to Colorado for two months to take care of family. Grandma(Sae's) is not doing so well, and both Mary Anne and Julie(Mother-in-Law and Sister-in-Law) are having to have medical procedures done so they need Sae there. I of course understand why it needs to happen, but it's still painful when we are apart and we've never, ever come close to being away from each other for that long. I know that two months isn't actually a long time but it is when you've spend only a handful of nights apart from someone for the last four and a half years. *Sigh* I know it will be okay, it's just sad to think about.
I think that is all I have for now. I was going to talk about how school is going currently but looking at the clock, I see that I am already potentially going to be late for school so I should probably cut this short!